Igniting the spark
and a f t e r m a l I was standing in the midst of unaccountable...
Okay, let's start at the beginning - right at the beginning...
A wonderful day, yet pure frustration. Definitely some aggression too... just despairing - what am I going to write? The most delightful ideas keep flowing through my head - and now that my website is being finalized, it feels like all these ideas have disappeared... hidden... not tangible...
I can feel a thunderstorm of anger flowing through my cells - the fire of frustration blazing incessantly in my mind - and the illusion of fear appearing deceptively real in my mind.
In a rage I drove into town... my head foggy... thoughts not tangible... absolutely no clarity. Where am I supposed to go? Even simple decisions are suddenly difficult for me. Turn left into the settlement? Maybe to the right towards the forest? Pure confusion... On the verge of a mental explosion, I decide on the small natural area away from the urban chaos.
I drove slowly up the long road in my Smart... when suddenly I saw a young lady on my left. She was picking something from the hedge at the side of the road. "It must be berries," I thought to myself. "Very interesting," I added, "but I have to get out of here now." So I parked my car 20 meters further on in front of an old villa, hopped out and headed straight for the wide meadow near the beautiful forest.
I could finally take a deep breath. I just stood there and looked at my surroundings. It felt really good!
A few moments later, the young lady came from the right and walked past me at a brisk pace - with a good portion of blackberries in her hand. A little light went on in my head... I waited a few more seconds and then immediately went to the suspicious spot.
"Wow," I thought to myself shortly after reaching my destination. There were huge blackberries growing everywhere! They were really tall bushes with an abundance of ripe fruit. It literally and instantly sweetened my day! I happily helped myself to these wondrous berries and, thank goodness, enjoyed the moment once again. I was immediately inspired - inspired to share this experience and write my first blog post. "Of course!", I thought to myself, "that'll get the ball rolling". It wasn't literally my thoughts, because I can't remember the exact sequence, but it definitely fits in terms of meaning! Motivated, I made notes on my cell phone and as I continued my journey, delightful ideas finally started to flow through my head again. A feeling of relief spread through me.
I arrived back home at some point and the drama started all over again. I went round in circles again and fell into old patterns: confusion, frustration and demotivation.
The evening passed, night fell and nothing happened. I sat in front of my computer for hours watching irrelevant videos without any point. It was a waste of time. In a vibe of frustration, I finally went to bed late.
The next morning I was woken up by the roar of a drilling machine on the first floor, 2 floors lower than my apartment, but as if it was happening right here in my wall. I didn't feel so "rosy" - not really because of the drilling but just generally sluggish. So I closed my eyes again to get some more sleep. "HA", thought a visitor in the façade, "YOU get up now!!!", and immediately started darting around behind the wall and ceiling at breakneck speed. It was a mouse - and I know it very well! But morning sprints are rather unusual. I immediately realized "This must be a sign! A synchronicity! A sign from my soul guides that I have to get up now!" And so I did! Or rather, I sat down in the typical "meditation seat" and, on the advice of a wonderful soul with whom I recently had a reading, began an exercise: I visualized for a few minutes the life I wish I had! I don't want to give much away, but one thing is for sure: I visualized, among other things, the completion of my first blog post!
I got up and started the day. Like every morning, I fed my beloved birds (free/wild birds) on the balcony with the finest bionuts and immediately planned a walk in nature to experience healing and inspiration.
I was drawn to one of my favorite forest trails, a few minutes from my apartment - the journey began...
I have to admit, I could still feel the sluggishness in my body and mind. I began the ascent of the small mountain/forest area at a relatively slow pace. I just knew that, despite my tiredness, I urgently and definitely needed to get out into nature! Surprisingly, my stamina was still there - metaphorically speaking, "like a sports car that has just been standing still for too long, but can still perform after the engine has warmed up again".
I made good progress - after a short time I was suddenly at the top of the mountain. Not yet at the summit, but still close. As contradictory as it may sound, I was gaining energy with every additional meter - yes, it was a bit exhausting and took strength, but my cells started to work again, which simply made me feel better! Instead of going to one of my favorite mountain benches, from where the view is simply outstanding (!!), I decided to walk towards the summit. And so my journey continued.
Thoughts of wild berries kept flying through my head. I heard from my neighbors, whom I once met on the mountain, that there were supposed to be berries somewhere. I didn't know which berries and where exactly, Nevertheless, this thought kept running through my mind. I hadn't had breakfast yet, so it would be a good and healthy snack.
I walked on and on, occasionally seeing berry bushes along the way, but they were extremely modestly stocked and not really visually appealing. The summit was not far away, but suddenly I was overcome by a feeling of gloom. "What else is there to do up there, you already know the route?" I thought to myself, once again completely demotivated. I was almost about to give up, turn back and make my way home, but then I picked myself up and just kept going. It was actually at this moment that I clearly felt "something" detach itself from me. Like a kind of "energy parasite/negative entity", which was instilling thoughts of demotivation and frustration in me, but was now "no longer able to tug at me" due to my determination and thus detached itself from me. A wonderful feeling, I can tell you! Not the first time I've experienced this, but once again a nice realization that you shouldn't give up - that you should keep moving forward with determination!
After an estimated 10 minutes, I finally reached the summit. It's not really like a pointed peak that's barely accessible and can only be climbed by scrambling, but it's more like a kind of large natural area with paths, some old alpine huts and small forests, but still at the top of the mountain, an estimated 1500 meters high.
Again, I just kept walking, not really knowing where I was actually going and eventually looked around for a few minutes. Really beautiful "but where should I go now?", I asked myself again. Right next to me was a fenced-in area for the mountain cows and maybe 30 meters further on was a small wooded area. I watched it for a while... it looked very interesting... somehow inviting too... but I hesitated. Especially those little countless bushes scattered all over the place looked very... I want to say... suspicious! They definitely looked familiar! I think I also heard a brief thought about "Jonna Jinton and her berry collections in Sweden". Then suddenly a feeling came over me, quiet but still present: "Go and have a look". It was a feeling... not a thought... very gentle, but at the same time crystal clear! I did what my feeling told me to do - so I hopped over the electric fence, hoping as I jumped that...well, let's just say "man's sacred place" would come across in one piece and continued on to the edge of the forest.
From an estimated distance of 1 meter I saw a berry hanging from the bush - small and blue. I hesitated - thoughts of doubt came up in my mind "Maybe a poisonous specimen, deceptively real to the known edible ones". But again this feeling came up in me to just try one. I picked it, bit into it carefully and immediately saw how the bright red/purple color came out - it was a blueberry - a wild blueberry!!! I immediately hopped over the second section of the electric fence into the forest and a f t e r m a l I was standing in the midst of countless blueberry bushes!!! They were just everywhere!
I could hardly believe what my eyes were seeing. I cautiously walked forward and realized that the ground was almost completely overgrown with moss - bright green moss!!! Again, I was overcome by that gentle yet present feeling of taking off my shoes. It simply felt like the only right decision to walk there barefoot now - barefoot on the moss that let me sink gently into it with every step. "God....", I thought to myself over and over again, "This is truly a blessing!". I felt like I was in paradise. I simply felt like I was in exactly the right and perfect place, in the middle of nature, surrounded by countless blueberries, in the middle of a forest whose ground is almost completely overgrown with bright green moss!!!
Again and again I just stood there and looked around - I didn't have to eat all the time - this moss under my feet was one of the highlights! Simply indescribable!
I'm sure you've already heard about the benefits of walking barefoot - the body is literally flooded with electrons, which is extremely beneficial for your health! It was also slightly damp under the moss, so I felt as if the conductivity of the electrons had been increased by the water and I could therefore absorb significantly more electrons.
God... dear ones, I tell you, it was just heavenly!!! Truly a blessing! It gave me such a boost of energy - like a kickstarter, which finally and completely inspired me to write my first blog post. After much procrastination, the ball started rolling and now I'm sitting here sharing this story with you with great joy and gratitude. Once again I realize that the things we are looking for and need are probably already very close to us, we just have to open up to them and recognize them. So this piece of forest with the berries had always been there, very close to me, but I had never discovered it before, despite several mountain hikes. But now, at the absolutely perfect time, this gift of nature revealed itself to me so that I can start writing my blog full of energy to share all the wonderful experiences of my life with you, in the hope that they will inspire you and put a smile on your face 🙂
